drowning

in debt because when the economy started to tank I panicked and took a job that pays me $10K less that I'm used to making. Turns out 10 is a shitton of K's and I can't pay my bills the way I thought/hoped I could and now the holidays are coming and I'm really panicking. Anyone have any ideas on how to bring in more money without taking a second job/ my hours are just way too prohibitive. And yes, I have been applying for higher paying jobs.

...ohmygodohmygodohmygod

I'm so incredibly freaked out about finances I think I might hyperventilate to death. How can I be this poor while being employed? How?! Ahhhh I'm dying.

and now a little financial softshoe

it's hard for me to wrap my mind around how much I work v. how much (much? no, not much at all, pennies!) I get paid. It seems to me that every time payroll rolls around, which is every other Friday, there is a new deduction my employer sucks out of my paycheck. A brief list of grievances;

• they forgot to pay me the first 2 weeks
• then they gave me a partial handwritten check
• next payroll they deducted the taxes from the prior partial payment
• then they retro-actively deducted health insurance (though thank god I have it)
• then they discovered they overpaid me for a few hours and without telling me deducted it in bulk resulting in an unexpected $200+ drop in my already crap paycheck.

I knew when I accepted this job that the salary wasn't at all what I was shooting for. I just didn't think it could possibly be as meager as it is. So now I'm the ass who will already be looking for a way to up my salary. Namely, being offered another better paying position elsewhere that I can present to HR prepared to take the other job if HR doesn't bite. Awesome. That's how you want things to go in your first two months at a new job, right? Eek. So to up the ante on my assness, with the amazing Heather's help, I've added ads to this site in the hopes of generating anything extra for my sad little coffers. I get that they're not a necessarily attractive distraction, sorry. 

why poverty sucks ass (part 1)

A good friend had a baby a MONTH ago. I have the gift.  I literally cannot afford to mail it.

I can't pay my cable bill (fine, I only watch Yankees games and Mad Men anyway) but I do really like the internet.